today went to work at TPY.. tot of many many things while working.. and also on the trip to TPY on the mrt... many many.. i begin to reflect on my own actions and all the conversations we ever had.. then i began to ask myself what happened.. im sure i did something wrong... and then i tot of wad david said.. somehow his words got into me.. yes.. she is someone who will pass my life and nv come back if i continue this way.. she is the only person who can unlock my heart and soul.. altho the lock can be forced open bt both of the things inside wil shatter into a million piesces... i know im selfish... bt i realli cannot stand this life anymore.. always no appetite to eat.. dun wan to slp.. dun have any interest in doing anything.. i tot playing maple would help.. playing bball would help.. bt even if i become the top in everything, without her i would be nothing.. nothing at all.. therefore wad reasons do i need more to convince myself that she is that one person who is worth waiting... altho im trying my best to make things back as they were.. bt i noe once the hurt is there, nothing i do can help... i know i hurt her repeatedly.. bt i realli have no choice and i haf my own reasons... the pain inflicted on me is 2 times of what she is feeling... i swear ......... i just hope things will be like how they were 1 week ago.. wish i can turn back the time.. bt say so much oso useless now..... i hate everything.. i hate my life.. i hate myself the most.. **tHe kEyS tO uNlOcK oUr hEaRtS...**
